Hello!

I haven't been very inclined to blog since my last announcement of my pregnancy in April.  The main reason was that it hasn't been an enjoyable pregnancy for the first five months hence I was very reluctant to share it on here.  And also, I wasn't in a mood to write anything because my mind was constantly clouded with worries and trying to constantly remain positive during that time. It became rather overwhelming to say the least.  I'm not one to share unhappy thoughts and feelings on the blog or any social media platform as I like to keep that side of things private.

Since then, about two months ago, situation and mood started to lift and we have had some good results back after what seems like eternity. I remember clear as day on that morning when my doctor rang me with the result. I have never felt so liberating and such relief in my life before. I just can't explained it. Suffice to say that I burst into tears when they shared the result with me. Tears of joy and relief, which had been bubbling away and brewing inside me for a long time!

So fast forward to here we are today, I am in a much happier place. I am finally enjoying my pregnancy and the last two months of what is left before bubba arrives. I am still hoping that everything will pan out fine as it is not over until he arrives healthy in my arms. I am grateful and thankful for my families and friends who have been there for me showing their support. And a special mention goes to my husband, who, during this time, remained calm, positive and constantly ensuring me that everything was going to be fine. He is my rock and sounding board and I knew I married him for a reason!!

Life has been utterly busy for me, even amidst all these. Work wise, I am currently trying to find a replacement for me as I am taking a year long maternity leave to become a stay at home mum of two. I laugh at the thought of that because we all know that I was not emotionally equipped to be one the first time round, but I guess things have changed since then. I am a more confident mum now and know what I am doing and also I have established a bigger network of mummy friends and friends in general whom I can turn to and hang out with, which I didn't have when I just had Miss Three. I find this extremely important especially for someone like me who lives abroad away from families. Good friends are sort of my extended family in this situation and having that strong network is extremely important. I am lucky to have very good relationship with some of my friends in Perth who, when time in need, are willing to come and help out.

I'm not saying that it's going to be easy because its not.I am not that deluded. It is going to be much tougher for us because we have no family support/backup when we need one but it has been that way for the last 4 years and we plodded along fine.  I am also fully aware that it is going to be twice the challenge and twice the chaos but what I'm trying to say is I'm going into this new gig with a little more excitement than I did the first time round because as we all know, first time motherhood is the hardest as it is blatantly what it was, a trial and error. At least this time, you know what to expect and going into the gig fully aware of how tough it can be as well as how rewarding and joyful it also is.  Forwarned is forarmed!

So with that said, I will leave you with this picture of me showing my full bump at 29 weeks!

And YES, we are having a BOY!