what's been going on?

Lordy! It’s been awhile hasn’t it? You don’t believe how busy life is at the moment for me. Internet surfing has seriously taken the back seat for now and even twittering seemed like a distant memory.

Fret not though as I’ve planned to return to my online rendezvous once I start my maternity leave, of which I’m so looking forward to. My last day is end of next week so it’s really not much longer to go. At the moment I’m just concentrating on tying up loose ends at work and handing over stuff to the new girl. When I’m not busy with work, I’m pretty much consumed with baby stuff, surprise surprise.

Speaking of baby stuff, I really need to start packing my hospital bag. Just in case you know if baby comes early and what not. Although everyone has been telling me that first time babies tend to be late but better be organised than not!

The birth day is drawing near and I am pretty anxious and scared about it to be honest. I don’t manage pain well and I can only hope that my labour will be smooth, quick and fuss free. I met with my Anaesthetist yesterday to get my assessment done and he went through the options of pain relief that are available and the risks that come with it. He also explained to us about epidural and I told him straight off the bat that I want epidural period so he had me sign a consent form. As scary as the big epidural needle is and can be painful when administered, it is still not as painful as labour contractions!

I don’t really have a birth plan as I know anything could happen during that day and I’m very open to whatever comes my way. As long as baby is healthy, I don’t really care. As much as I’m not a big fan of C-section nor assisted delivery or episiotomy for that matter, if it has to be done then so be it. As a way of prepping myself for the birth, I have been reading a lot online and watching heaps of videos regarding birth, episiotomy and assisted delivery. It’s pretty scary shit but at least I know what to expect should they happen to me. It's always good to know about the unknown so you know what to expect! Knowledge is power i'd say.

I don’t really want to jinx things by saying it but so far, I have been pretty lucky. I have had a smooth and uncomplicated pregnancy till today and I really hope that it remains this way till the birth. I have an amazing husband who is supportive and tolerant of me as he puts up with my shit from time to time (just like how I put up with his so it's a fair game! lol). God knows how cranky I can be in this pregnant state, more especially at this late in pregnancy! Being pregnant is not a walk in the park and I take it in my stride to be nice as much as I can to everybody but some days, no matter how much you try to be that happy chappy, you still feel like absolute shit. Pregnancy hormone is a bitch and its tough business.

This baby making journey has opened up my eyes and made me realise how much my man has done for me during this time. I am really grateful for him and seriously wouldn't know how i'll cope without him. He is my rock and I am so thankful! He’s a good man that husband of mine and I know he’s going to be the greatest dad he can be to our baby girl.

I can't wait for us three to finally meet and start a new chapter in our life.

So now I’ll leave you with a photo of my belly bump at 34 weeks.

Speak soon!

and yes, i'm starting to feel H-U-G-E!